I don’t know what to do.
It hurts so much, and it’s all my fault. I really don’t see a light at the end of this.
I know its stupid to say that after a relationship less than a year but I don’t know what happened.
I thought being honest would help, I thought it may make me feel safer.
I feel so in the dark.
I wish he would just choose so I wont have to keep hurting.
I can’t see the point anymore.
Why does this hurt so much.
Actually debating just disappearing.
I can’t look at couples or even think about them without it hurting.
So this is my goodbye guys.
I know no one reads this blog anyway, so it wont be much of a loss, but thought i’d leave you the courtesy of saying goodbye, just in-case anyone reads this, and wonders why this blog began and ended.
It began with a girl on the verge of nothingness, who never knew what to do, who cut, who lied, and wore so many masks that she didn’t know who she was.
Then she was saved by a boy who cared, who could see something she couldn’t.
Then he left.
And the girl realised there wasn’t anything worth it.
The story ends here, as she goes back into hiding, into giving up.
The world will think she is fighting, that she wont give up, But on the inside she is gone, until one day mind and body meld into one non existent state.
Goodbye and Goodluck
First lot of uni exams… I should really be studying a lot more but I really am not stressed enough to care.